On another note, I finally freed myself of some people who have tied me down.

There are these girls whom I’ve known since I was 14 (we’re now in our early 30s). Knowing each other for over half our lives is a pretty big deal but once they started to have families things changed.

Our relationship became more strained during the jail incident that you all know about. They were angry that I did not tell them for a year when legally I couldn’t. Things kind of went downhill for us from there. Rather than be understanding or there for me when it was the most traumatic experience of my life, they made it about them.

And again, once they had families that only added to it.

I always had this notion of that classic trope “that won’t happen to us” in terms of our relationship breaking. I just always figured it would get stronger. I was wrong.

Now though I sent them a text about getting into that Master’s program and radio silence. Something good happens in my life and they can’t bother to get back to me.

It feels like a breakup and in a way, I guess it kind of is. But now that I am so done it feels freeing. I’ve always been the one to put in the work. If they reach out, cool, if not then I’m okay with that too. I’ve finally got some things going well in my life and I can focus on that.

It’s sad it came to this but now that I’ve admitted this, my head feels lighter and that’s what I guess I always needed.