Ugh, I’ve got to stop my spending. A lot of it is my bipolar I do know that. It keeps logic from entering my mind and telling me to sit back. Like logically I know I shouldn’t be spending, but it’s like I can’t seem to help it.

And then it gets worse when I’m depressed. Like lately I’ve been feeling drab because I’m waiting on school stuff and I have yet to find a job so the depression from that gets me to want to find something to feel better and the only way I feel better is by buying a new book or two.

Like today, I ended up going to the bookstore for the third time this week. As much as I love my books, then the guilt sets in (a common feeling for a lot of people with bipolar disorder).

I just have one book coming in on Saturday so after that I’m really going to try hard to quit.

Now the main question I have is when is it my bipolar (since over-spending is a symptom) and when does it crossover into an addiction?