I am so confused right now. My friend is coming into town July 21st-24th. She and another friend want to meet up, but I’m not entirely sure if I want to or not.

Part of me is thinking about it for selfish reasons. 1.) I’ll get to be around their babies and since there’s going to be one in the family next year I figure I might as well try to be around them. 2.) It could help with my healing.

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These particular best friends betrayed me. When I went through what I went through at Walmart, I could legally not tell them for a year. When I finally did instead of being understanding or reaching out to see if I was okay, instead they got mad at me for not telling them. They never brought it up and talked about it, and when I mentioned it a couple of times they would tell me they forgot. You’d think after over 15 years of friendship (at the time of my Walmart incident), that they wouldn’t forget something so monumental in my life.

I’ve been angry at them for so long about it. I’ve been so betrayed by it as well. I’m barely touching on this particular topic in therapy so I have to relieve it all over again to the point where I question my own judgment on whether or not I’m over reacting.

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And now they want to meet up. I’m not sure what to do. I don’t know what to do. What do I do?